**Update**

It's amazing what exercise (and realizing that it is PMS making you grouchy) can do for your mood. I walked 1 1/2 miles with my son in a half hour. Did 30 reps with a 25 lb barbell (I know, but it is a start), 30 crunches, and 30 squats.

My son is my hero. He is a very athletic 13 year-old, he's been playing football for 5 years, and wrestling for 2. I asked him today to help me with this whole exercise thing, and he was more than willing. He walked with me, and even held my hand at times. Literally, held my hand. My boy is awesome.

This is not at all on my schedule for today, but I am felling really down lately. It must be the weather because I am normally a pretty happy peron (the Zoloft doesn't hurt either).

I found out what my biggest issue is, I procrastinate so much. However, I procrastinate because I do not know where to start. I am overwhelmed. Therefore, I created a schedule for myself today. Seeing it in writing will help me to stay on track with classes, work-outs, home, family. I also think that deep down I have a fear of failure. I often start projects and do not finish them. This is also a big issue for me.

And the voices. Sometimes I hear my Mom criticizing me. Other times, a word, phrase, or song lyric will become stcuk in my head. Fortunately, I can still focus on what I am doing it's just...there. I don't know. Weird.