This is not at all on my schedule for today, but I am felling really down lately. It must be the weather because I am normally a pretty happy peron (the Zoloft doesn't hurt either).

I found out what my biggest issue is, I procrastinate so much. However, I procrastinate because I do not know where to start. I am overwhelmed. Therefore, I created a schedule for myself today. Seeing it in writing will help me to stay on track with classes, work-outs, home, family. I also think that deep down I have a fear of failure. I often start projects and do not finish them. This is also a big issue for me.

And the voices. Sometimes I hear my Mom criticizing me. Other times, a word, phrase, or song lyric will become stcuk in my head. Fortunately, I can still focus on what I am doing it's just...there. I don't know. Weird.